The Ligeti sonata is freaking amazing.

Of course, the Elgar.

Also the Britten suites and the Crumb sonata. Not quite as excited about those, mostly because I can’t play them.

I didn’t buy the sheet music to this one. But the cellist is freaking hot.

I have a bit of pent-up rage. At IIT. And the people at IIT. And at myself, for deciding to do math and for deciding to go here.

Here’s the thing.

Mathematicians are, seemingly by definition, elitist and impractical. And have really strange senses of humor. And get really obsessed about things that have no real-world application. WhatthefuckamIdoinghere?

Or maybe it’s just the people at IIT in general. People who seem smart because they’re nerdy but are really just obnoxious and unintelligent. And easily amused.

I’m probably being too harsh right now, actually I’m rather sure of it, but I still just feel really… purposeless?

What the fuck am I even going to do with a math degree?

Anyway. Here’s a taste of my angst, in the form of strange and experimental cello improv. It’s about 9 minutes long.

“Can never ever ever die
By any other way but frying…”

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I think my computer has fried. I may be wrong (and that eleven hours isn’t long enough for it to completely dry out), but it’s entirely possible that my computer has died. By frying.

Alright. STORY TIME!

I was playing the Gigue to the 6th Suite (as I tend to do on Saturday nights when the rest of the world is partying) and I just couldn’t get the light just right, and it was really frustrating me. I usually just reach back and turn on Isaac’s desk lights, but I couldn’t reach them from where I was, and, being particularly lazy, I didn’t feel like walking to the middle of the room to put my cello down and walk back.

So I messed with the dumb clip-on lamp. Turns out I don’t have enough strength in my right hand to clip it onto my bookshelf. Turns out, with one hand, I managed to drop the lamp, which then proceeded to knock over the water onto my keyboard.

So. I held the power button with my right index finger while holding my cello and bow in my left hand. I then put my cello down (finally) and paper-toweled the keys. Put the laptop on a towel on my bed, and then mopped up the water that had been underneath (it had been sitting in a sizable puddle).

Well, when I attempted to turn it on after about 10 minutes of drying out, the monitor flickered and it turned off (I hope that the effect of a safety mechanism and not DEATH).

Um. Well, of course, I then had to use the screen as my music stand to finish practicing. I went backwards through the 6th suite, and then played most of the 5th (C minor, a great key for what I was feeling at the moment).

Tried turning it on again afterwards, same thing happened.
Left it overnight. Slept without brushing my teeth.

Turned it on in the morning and I noticed two things:
1) The monitor was REALLY dim. Like, almost impossible to read.
2) Windows wouldn’t start. In normal mode, the thing just turned off. In safe mode, it just gave me DOS crap.

So, anyway, I’m sitting here in the computer lab, enjoying Regina through my iPod. If anyone wants to, um, come with me to Micro Center or something sometime? Or drive me there? (ha) Maybe I want to wait for a while to see if it needs to dry out more. Hrm…